Does anyone think it is hard to stop
thinking about the past?
I am definitely not a grudge holder.
I am also aware that
this past of mine defines who I am.
But..there are some things
I Just. Cannot. Let. Go.
It really isn't cool at all.
These things are not positive
or beneficial to my life whatsoever.
"What would have happened if I did this instead?"
If I would have just listened
to what God was trying to tell me..
If I didn't slip and fall on that right path?
If I did the simple things every day
to keep me in that desired placement..
It's a struggle.
I guess you could say that
I am so satisfied and happy
with where I am right now,
I often wonder if certain mistakes
I should have refrained from making
would have got me here sooner.
I don't know.
Am I alone experiencing
this odd fault of mine?