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eighteen.

i often wonder if it's normal to think of the past.
not long for it.
but appreciate the present more.
well, it is for me.

eighteen months ago 
i was the opposite girl of who i am now.
i smirk at that. 

eighteen months ago,
i was a heartbroken girl
who wanted
nothing to do with anything.

my boyfriend and i broke up.
i had to wonder if it was as hard for him as it was for me.
but of course, it wasn't. 
[he is a guy, after all]. 

what tore me apart the most is that only
two people knew the reason we broke up.
it was a big reason.
one you can't just avoid.

i was a wreck.
i wrote sad poems,
listened to depressing music,
and sort of wished i wasn't even at utah state 
where nobody understood me.

if you fast forward four dragged on weeks..
you will find me at my happiest.

i met the man that would sweep me off my feet
and care for me the way nobody else had.

days like today,
i have to take myself back there.
to where i was.
i was not myself.
i was not secure. nor happy.

i am a lucky girl.
i also wish i could shout all of my lessons learned 
to the whole universe.
it really is one of those 'lit up lightbulb' moments.

my lesson learned: 
it does get better.
you have to have bad experiences to get you to the good.
sometimes, you have to remind yourself why you deserve to be happy.
don't give up or get rebellious.

you will be happier than a bird with a french fry shortly.
just give it time.





19 comments

  1. Thank you so much for posting this. It sounds just like my life! Except I haven't met the right person yet. I know good things will come soon

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  2. Love this. So inspiring. :) I'm glad you met your man when you did and that you're so happy!

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  3. love this :) it's good to remember that no matter how bad things are... it will ALWAYS get better.

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  4. It's incredible how things can turn around so quickly, isn't it?

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  5. Oh the bird with a french fry. So cute and so true. We don't know what life has planned for us, so we just have to hold on.

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  6. As always. You speak to my inner core. I adore you. And SO happy I saw you for 2 minutes and got to officially meet Trev in a setting he will remember me! haha

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  7. So lovely and sweet! 2 years ago I was crying more than I was eating. Now I'm so in love it's ridiculous. Cheers to hope & true love!

    Have a great weekend!

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  8. Oh this is precious! I love your outlook on life :)

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  9. Isn't that crazy how it happens. You're so heart broken and then you find the love of your life! My glad you found your true love!

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  10. Perspective is one of the hardest things to maintain when we're going through hard times. I'm glad that you got through the other side.

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  11. This just makes me happy :) Go you for keeping on with life when it seemed like its worse, those experiences are harder than anyone realizes

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  12. I'm happy you are happy! There's always a little rain before the rainbow. :)

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  13. This made my day! I love you girl!

    www.dysfunctionaleverafter.com

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  14. "sometimes you have to remind yourself why you deserve to be happy" so needed this. Also, I would like to think it is normal to look back on the past, because I do that often. Mostly to see how I have grown and changed, or to see if I need to change something back to how it was...

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  15. Also, thanks for your sweet comment on my blog the other day! You are so great

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  16. When you hit rock bottom, you can only go up. Sometimes you have to just let go and let fate step in.

    Found your blog via Pinterest

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  17. Without sour, there would be no sweet. Without know how dark black was, you would never know how bright white was. Consider yourself a lucky gal.

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