i need to vent. about my life. right now. i used to do thankful thursday's. & it might be a little bit of a coincidence to post this today. but boy. i am so grateful for my life right now. through the past few months, i have been dealing with some major anxiety & rough things. i have struggled with forgiving myself, with moving on, & with trials i can't seem to just let go. after having an amazing talk with my heavenly father & studying His word, my heart has changed. i went to church by myself last week, because mr. schroeder was sick. a girl talked all about conversion. & though i have been a member of the lds church my whole life, i have truly been converted.
today, i am grateful for so many things. i am grateful for new friendships. i believe blogging is more than letting my emotions go. i met a wonderful girl today named jana. she blogs at a day in the life & is one of the biggest blessings in my life lately. she will randomly text me a quote i happened to just need to hear...at the perfect moment. & i love her!
i am thankful for my husband. he has been so incredibly patient with me while i figure out everything that's going on. he supports me. he is there for me. & he offers his advice when needed. he is the perfect man for me. it's an indescribable feeling to know how much someone loves you & won't ever leave you alone.
i am thankful for therapy. it's silly. i have talked to more than one therapist & i came to the conclusion that they're all just a little weird. then one night, lookin around the internet, came across a man who seemed to have some sort of spark. i called him. at 10pm. he called me back at 10:30. and we talked. and set an appointment. and that one appointment has already changed my life for the better.
i am just so humbled. i haven't been this happy in a little bit. & i feel like no matter what is going on, it will get better. i didn't think it would. & i thought my life was toast for awhile. but no. it will get better. if you will just trust in the lord. & do what you're supposed to, of course. if you're having a bad day, a bad week, bad months, or a few bad years, get down on your knees & pray! just pour your heart out & you will feel comfort. and like i said above, it will get better. trust me on that one.