Marriage

Marriage
Marriage

Happiness

Happiness
Happiness

Trials

Trials
Trials

just hold on.

when i first realized i fell in love, it was shocking to me. i cried at the thought of it. i cried thinking that this wonderful perfect man would potentially be my husband someday. i was a baby. i think that one of the reasons why it was so shocking to me was because of the heartbreak i was experiencing prior to that. i remember after my first date with him, deep down, i knew i loved him. i called my sister & asked her how her feelings were toward her first date with her husband. they were the exact same. wellp. i am now one of those people i used to make fun of. the people i thought were absolutely crazy for loving every part of someone...on the first date. 

oh, by the way, look at us. we were babies! this was our first picture taken together. it was also right before we made out for the first time. in case you wanted to know? 



so it was weird. love. was. weird. i found it super silly how every guy i claimed to "love" before trevor wasn't love. it wasn't simple like this.  it didn't come easy. i was never my whole self. but with trevor, everything came easy. i guess i wanted to write this in hopes of inspiring someone and even inspiring myself to go back to the moment i laid eyes on him. basically, i hope everyone knows..married or not, that God definitely looks out for each one of us. i probably was in the worst state i had ever been in my life prior to meeting mr. schroeder. 

 i know it gets better. i just know. to some, that happiness you need in your life might not be marriage. or maybe it's a brand new baby to bless & strengthen your life. our plan is absolutely insane to me. i still can't wrap my mind around it all. how one moment, i am so incredibly lost. lost to the point where i am asking God to help me because i truly can't go on any longer. then one month later, my life does a 180, & i am as happy as i've ever been. everything was perfect. everything ran smoothly. God is good, people. God is so so good.

& now, you can call me a cheese ball. after meeting mr. schroeder, i was so annoying. i couldn't stop taking pictures of him, pictures of us, every little detail of his life. i wanted to be a part of all of it. like this:



 what am i doing? hey. pose with that grocery cart while i take a picture of you. like..what? 

moral of the story? press on. hold on. and hang on so tight. if you're having a hard time, it won't be forever. i promise. mr. schroeder is my angel. he saved me from hitting rock bottom. well, my rock bottom. & he is my proof. that God really is there. and He sure knows what he's doing. 


15 comments

  1. Sounds like what happened to me & the mister! We both just knew right off the bat. Isn't it funny how that works out? I had hit rock bottom as well & God sent my husband my way at the perfect time. Not sure if you've ever read our love story, but yes, GOD IS GOOD! :)

    ReplyDelete
  2. haha don't worry, I'm that girlfriend who doesn't stop taking pictures either! I'm like, "Wait..take another bite of that! but slowly...!"

    ReplyDelete
  3. I adore the sweetness in this post. It seems like we have such a similar story. From heart broken to heart full. In just what seemed to be a matter of days.. How beautiful God is. How powerful. Thank you for sharing :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. It's still so crazy to me how similar our stories are :)

    ReplyDelete
  5. Amanda! How did you know that I needed this right now?! hahaha :) I love this so so much and I hope that I can find love like this someday! :)

    ReplyDelete
  6. Bahahaha, "It was also right before we made out for the first time"!!! I LOVE you hahahaha, thank you for sharing that important piece of inforamiton with us! :) And I love that you take pictures all the time because I used to be a big picture taker and then I was afraid that Joe would get annoyed, well, and we usually just studied and watched movies, so there wasn't much to take pictures of. :P
    I like this post a lot though because I feel like it was similar when I met Joe. I had the worst year of dating, the worst luck, the most frustrating time. My friend and I were just talking about it the other day and how miserable and frustrated we were and then it was like these amazing guys just fell into our laps and after all of that time without any luck, it was almost too good to be true and we couldn't believe that a boy could treat us like that and like us so much! :) I remember being kind of shocked when Joe told me that he loved me even though I was feeling the same way. Ok, that is all, I'll stop my massive comment now! ;)

    ReplyDelete
  7. this maybe made me cry a little bit! i knew i loved a boy on our first date. somedays, being just his best friend is the hardest thing ever. others, i'm glad that we're at least that.

    but you're right. God IS good and one day it'll be him, or it'll be someone else and i'll love them more than i thought imaginable.

    i seriously love your blog so much. your real life stories are so relatable.

    can't wait to freakin' meet you!

    ReplyDelete
  8. I love your Blog so so much!
    xoxo
    bailey

    ReplyDelete
  9. You always know what I need to hear :)

    ReplyDelete
  10. :) :) :) :) happy post. You are a doll.

    ReplyDelete
  11. I love this post! So true!

    ReplyDelete
  12. I LOVE this post and I LOVE your blog! Thank you for your sweet comments today...happily following back :). You two are seriously the cutest things ever!

    ReplyDelete
  13. this is literally making me cry. you are just so precious. I love this. I want to go hug and kiss my boyfriend right now. thaaaaaank you.

    ReplyDelete
  14. Aww, this was and is exactly how I feel about Caleb :) I knew it from the [fourth] time I laid eyes on him <3 (I met him a few times before, but we barely had a chance to talk until then). But he was my saving angel, too. And he still is. That's what makes this wait worth it.

    ReplyDelete
  15. I came across this from pinterest and I would like to say thank you. I don't know if at this moment you 2 are fighting or still madly in love but what you posted is just what I needed to hear. I've been married for 4 years and have 3 children. I've had a stressful past 3 weeks and have found reasons, valid or not, to put a lot of the blame on my husband. He loves me more than life and can be incredibly sweet but can sometimes become oblivious to my obvious stresses. I finally brought it up with him and then followed the awkward phase of him being overly helpful and sweet while I continued to be upset that the help was only coming after I brought it up. This morning he put down what he was doing and pulled me up to him. He said, very sincerely, that I could take all the time I needed to be upset but that he would like for me to try to get over it quickly because he would hate it if something happened to one of us and our last memories are ones of anger. I fought the urge to let go of my frustration and left for work with 3 kids in tow. After reading this I've thought back on how we met, how long it took us to be friends, and all the things that make our story unique. It made me think about this last Sunday when I walked into our classroom of 11 yr. olds and I heard him say that I was his best friend and he would rather spend time with me than anyone else. So thank you. I'm going to write him a loving letter now highlighting his strengths.

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for taking time out of your day to comment. I hope you have a fabulous day and find something to smile about.