we all have our trials in this life. we all face something hard. nobody makes it through life without going through some sort of trial. it's silly to me. because each time i'm so sad over something, it always makes me stronger. no matter what. each time somebody is going through something hard, i always hear,
"i never thought i would be one of those people going through this."
i've heard that about deaths in the family, not being able to have children, abuse, and so much more. when talking with my mom the other day, i found myself saying the same thing. i have never been through something so hard in my life. for a few months, all i would do was go home, crawl into bed, and cry my eyes out. then, my relationship with my Heavenly Father grew, and i realized that instead of feeling sorry for myself, i needed to steer my attention for God's children. so i did. and now, i'm back at square one. feeling sorry for myself all over again.
i would ask for prayers. but i don't want to. at this moment in time, all i know is that i MUST get out & serve those around me. i MUST steer my thoughts away from myself. & i MUSTN'T live my life like this. this way, i can show the lord i am exercising my faith in him to heal me. or if it is in his will, to help me get through this with the most positive attitude a person can possibly have.
sorry for the negativity around here. i promise it's not intentional. imma take a break. just for a few days.