i have a lot of opinions circling in my head about self worth and loving yourself. i think it's because i learned the hard way. i've contemplated writing about my past a whole bunch because it helps me be grateful for where i am today & it also helps other people who are currently going through a rough patch. however, i write about it, then i delete it. because i'm over that phase in my life. there is something i can take & learn from, but i never want to dwell. ever ever.
years ago, i went to a fireside where marie osmond spoke at. it helped me so much. she mentioned, "don't marry if you have low self esteem" that means more to me now than it did then. because i am married! in high school, my self esteem would never ever shake. i knew who i was. i knew who i wanted to become. and nobody could ever destroy that, or so i thought. i fell in love in high school. and it was a very long three years that sort of destroyed that self esteem i had. because i was never good enough. i had a fabulous relationship with my mother, i had friends that i adored, and i had a solid faith in the church. the three most important things to me had diminished after dating a controlling boy. who is to blame? not him. but me. it's really my own fault.
so i met mr. schroeder. and though i knew he was the one and the spirit was yelling at me, "THIS IS YOUR GUY..." i still had little self esteem. we married. and i couldn't have chosen any better human being to spend forever with. he has played a major part in helping my self esteem grow to what it never was before. i've definitely learned that you MUST love yourself FIRST before you can allow anyone else to love you with their whole heart. i know who i am. i know where i'm going. and nobody will ever destroy that. i mean that this time.
i believe many women struggle with insecurities and self worth problems. what woman doesn't? we all go through phases where we just don't like ourselves. but i challenge everyone to quit doing what the world wants you to do. become what you dream to become. & pray often. because you can't do it yourself.