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Change is Inevitable

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 I'm sure I've mentioned more than three times that I hate change. I just don't like it. It seems like I finally get comfortable in my own skin, my own environment, and my own life, then the big man upstairs is all, "K Manda. You need to get up and do something different. This just isn't workin out right." Every time a change takes place, it is always God's way of giving you something better. And if it isn't, it's a lesson, a blessing in disguise. A few days ago, we moved. Not too far, yet, we moved. I have never had a hard time leaving a home (besides my parents after I got married) the way I did. I absolutely loved our landlords. They were an older couple that I looked to as my own grandparents. 

Every time I turned the corner, I would start to cry. There were so many memories in that house. So. Many. Memories. We only lived there for a year, yet, it was an amazing year. When I think about that house, I think about crying. I would always go in the bathroom, sit on the floor next to the tub, and just cry. I would feel sorry for myself. It seems as if this next chapter is a new and amazing chapter that I am so excited to start. I am no longer going to be crying about my situation, because it is fixed and I am all better. I no longer feel broken and this new house is going to bring brighter and better memories. In that old house, I will miss so many people and even Reggie, the dog upstairs. 


When I think, I really think. Mr. Schroeder knows that when there is a big change, I have to find the reason WHY, whether it be now or later. Now that we have moved, I was seeking an answer as to why we were living in Alpine in the first place. I thought about it. "What has changed drastically in my life since we have lived here?" And suddenly, I knew. Bishop Wood. I confided in him after struggling with many past issues and trials. We only met twice. Yet through the spirit, he taught me more than I would have ever taught myself. He taught me how to work on forgiving myself. He taught me how to love myself. He taught me that it's okay to feel like I'm not enough sometimes, and how to change that so that you are good enough. He taught me so much. And because of him, and God speaking through him, I am a much changed person. There have been so many experiences in that home in one short year. I couldn't imagine living in that neighborhood for 5+ years and leaving. It was heartbreaking. But at the same time, I am moving on to bigger and better things. I am going to have awesome experiences. Instead of crying in the bathroom every night, I'm going to laugh every night. Life is beautiful. Change is beautiful. And I am accepting that because I know God has a bigger and brighter path for me. It might just take a second to see it a little clearer and truly understand why. 

5 comments

  1. yea i hate change myself and lately that's all that's happening. i emailed you chick

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  2. Love you girl. Change is hard... I don't deal well with it... But stay strong! You are an amazing girl!!
    XO
    Love Me, Dani Marie

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  3. I love your blog! I'm a new reader and I'll definitely be coming back. I love the way you see things and help me see things in a different way :)

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  4. Our move was bittersweet for this same reason. We were sick of our apartment and the management that we were dealing with, but we REALLY loved our friends there and in the ward. It's been a hard adjustment and we miss the old area so much, but there were more pros than cons, we knew it was right, and we haven't regretted it at all. But change is still really difficult, it's not my favorite!

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  5. I suck at change but at the same time I love it. It's been so hard to see all my friends going back to school at USU and I'm just chillin in Salt Lake waiting for my cosmetology school to start this month. But deep down I KNOW I'm here for a reason, and being with my husband is what I mostly need any way :) Praying for your adjustment, you inspire me!

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