Sometimes, I feel my life is a movie. In high school, there were some absolutely crazy out of control circumstances with my friends, my peers, my life, everything, that would probably make for a good movie. When asked if that’s a good thing or not, I think it is. I really do. I believe in the next life we’ll be able to watch a movie of our lives. There are so many moments I wish I would have recorded better, whether it be a recorder, a camera, or even a simple journal entry. There's probably something for me to learn here.
Since I got hitched, I don’t think life could be better. I don’t mean to sugarcoat my life here, except I’m being completely honest. Whenever we hang out with some friends who have been married for about the same amount of time, it seems as if their lives haven’t taken them to difficult journeys yet…which is fine. On the other hand, Mr. Schroeder and I have been through quite a bit together. One trial has truly left us feeling broken and figuring out how to love one another throughout the whole course. And if it weren’t for this roller coaster event life has brought us, we wouldn’t have ever learned the proper way to get through these types of things. I sort of just want to shout to the world, “I’M SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS TRIAL!” I am. I remember Trevor would always try and talk to me and say, “You’ll be grateful for this later on. I just know it.” Almost every time, I would fire back with, “What good could come from this? There is no good coming from it whatsoever.” Yet there is.
Most of the time, I can’t see why something is good for me until that certain something has left my life for good and I have conquered it. But the moment that I realize what God is trying to tell me, it’s almost as if I have an “ah hah” light bulb moment, and I just want to go tell my husband as well as pour out the capacities of my heart. Life is good, people. Life is very very good. And I truly wish that light bulb moment would go off in every single person's head. Sometimes, I want to shake people, and say, "I promise that this is happening for a reason. Whether you see it right now or not, you will. And if you let it strengthen you, you will be thankful for it later."