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One year ago, I would have had a heart attack to imagine posting a picture of myself without make-up on the internet. But not anymore, folks! This is me. No make-up & no filter - au naturale. This past year, I have learned a hell of a lot of things about myself. Wonderful things. Great things. Beautiful things. I have flaws, many of them. Before I got married, I had very low self esteem. It was torn down and broken because I let somebody take advantage of my feelings. Still, it was my fault, yet I didn't really like myself. I know many say that they must love themselves before they love another person. In my case, I needed Trevor's love in order to feel love for myself. I remember a particular pep talk about a year and a half ago from Mr. Schroeder himself. It was pretty strict. He began by telling me that I must learn to love myself again. He also begged me to not wear make-up anymore. So I took his challenge. I used to not be able to leave the house without make-up. But now, I can. In fact, I do most of the time. I used to have to get dolled up to even leave the house. I used to worry about what people thought about me. I used to compete. I used to compare. And it wasn't happiness. Tonight, I'm having one of those wonderful moments where I am so happy with the woman that I have become. I am happy about where I am going. I am blessed. God has given me multiple opportunities and I currently have a ridiculously strong relationship with every single important person in my life. Life is so good. I'm shocked that I can look in the mirror and not hate the person staring back at me. Instead, I smile at her. Not prideful smiles, but humble-proud smiles. Though some days it feels like one step forward, two steps back, I think the steps forward can be multiplied by 2 or 3. 

14 comments

  1. You are flawless! You look so gorgeous!

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  2. I think you are beautiful no matter what :)

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  3. Always so encouraging! You are beautiful!

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  4. You look wonderful! I love seeing women without their make-up. I did a challenge to myself a long time ago to not wear make-up for a year, and it really has changed the way that I see myself! I still have good days and bad days, but I feel like I have more good than bad, if you know what I mean. I'm so glad that you can look at yourself and see the good!

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  5. You are simply amazing. I am grateful for your example! I have struggled with this but I don't care about makeup anymore !

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  6. You are very beautiful! I know the feeling about not being able to leave the house without being dolled up. I can leave with wet hair, but I have to have make up on. I hope I can aspire to what you've done - accept who you are and be happy and proud of it! You're an example to me! Love ya!

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  7. Super babe! You are gorgeous inside and out! Love you!!

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  8. you are amazing! being confident can be so hard for women. So glad you have learned to love your natural beauty!

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  9. You are beautiful! I totally agree with you. I didn't realize the lack of self esteem I had before I met my husband, and he has had to help me believe I was good and help build my esteem. I think the help of others can make a difference, but mostly it's their love.

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  10. You are gorgeous. Lovely post.

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  11. girl you are DARLING!! you do not need even a drop of makeup! Love you and your sweet little blog so much! I always feel SO uplifted after reading your posts. the blogosphere defiantly needs more of that so thank you! you really are so beautiful on the inside and the outside.

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  12. You are beautiful lady! I have missed visiting the blogosphere and your corner in it!
    xoxo

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  13. i never used to go out without being ready, but this 4th kid did me in. you can catch me at your local walgreens in my sweats now. haha. i'm sure jake loves that.

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