A few days ago, I was cruising around Twitter when I saw an amazing quote by the lovely Ashley. A lot of feelings hit me at once. Lots of bricks. Lots of emotions. Lots of thoughts. About my marriage. I've had lots of personal issues come up over the last few months. Though my marriage is not necessarily struggling, I have felt the adversary try ridiculously hard to push my husband and I apart. And I think. and think. and think some more. This quote could not have said it better.
The quote comes from "The Fault in our Stars." Unfortunately, I haven't read it yet. But on the other hand, this quote. THIS. QUOTE. We all made promises when we got married. Though I'm not sure whether or not this quote is talking about marriage, I sure as hell interpreted it that way. I'm LDS. Not only did I make promises to my husband when we got married, I made promises to God. Sometimes, I want to give up. I literally want to fly to the Maldives, live there, with nobody I know, and never talk to anyone again. Not only would this break my promise with my husband, it would break my promise with the Lord. I need to freaking remember that. Especially during the hard times!
I have been so incredibly blessed to marry a man that is more than worthy of my love. I always remember receiving a blessing during one of the roughest times in my life. The part that stood out to me most was the part when he said, "A worthy man will soon enter your life..." The thing that's crazy to me is..."How am I worthy to him?" I've wanted to step up my game. And sometimes I feel stuck. But that doesn't mean that I can't get through OR over it. And I will.