I don't know where I got this "lovely" trait of mine; however, from the day I was born, all I wanted to do was go-go-go. If I wasn't involved in 3-4 things outside of school, I was too bored with my life. I always needed more. I wanted to accomplish multiple things at one time. At the time, I couldn't decide if it was because I wanted to impress my parents, or if it was because I actually enjoyed the act of being overly-busy.
Fast forward to six months ago. I got a new Full-Time job at an amazing company, and was starting school the day before my new job. I was enrolled for 15 credits, and I was confident I'd succeed greatly. Throughout these last few months, I can't stop thinking about why I thought this was a good idea. I received a calling in church, and between work and school, the responsibilities were just too large.
I've put the things I love most on the back burner: my dear husband, my family, and the life I ultimately loved to live. My sister moved to Utah with her 4 adorable kids, and I can count on one hand how many times I have seen them. For some reason, there is some sort of satisfaction of being so drained I can't even walk anymore. I pass out in my bed every single night from pure and utter exhaustion. And for some reason, I enjoy it. Though I've come to realize that my priorities must be on God and family, I think I've also learned that becoming ridiculously busy is just in my blood.
Twenty One Pilots is my favorite band. If you know me at all, you're probably annoyed of me talking about them constantly. But the very first song I heard of theirs talked about the importance of sitting in silence and allowing your mind to think. YOU GUYS. After following these small and simple words of advice from these lyrical geniuses, my life has forever changed. I don't know if it's a rare thing to actually take some to think. But if you don't, your mind will explode.