23 April 2015

A new beginning

I worked in online marketing for a little bit over a year. There were some changes that the company was going through that really made me feel uncomfortable. Many people were getting laid off and I wasn't feeling secure. Afraid that I was going to lose my job, I began looking for work. In December, I found a dreamy position in advertisement/promotional products. I was stoked and had a really giddy feeling about it. I instantly emailed the company with my resume and got a reply a few days later explaining that the position was already filled. 

After a few weeks, my current position was getting much better. I was feeling more secure, layoffs hadn't been happening as much, the company was showing improvement, and I decided to stop looking for a job and continue working. One day at work, I had a really bad day. Everything was going wrong. I realized my heart wasn't it in anymore, and I was just feeling super lost. On the way home, I was bawling my eyes out and a bit upset at Heavenly Father, exclaiming, "Why aren't you listening to me? Why aren't you watching out for me?" I now feel completely pathetic for acting this way. But I was certainly having a break down. I called my husband crying and said, "I don't know Trev. I just feel like he doesn't listen to me."
30 minutes later...(I kid you not, it was 30 minutes), I checked my email and had a message from John, the individual who was hiring at the advertisement/promotional product company. He said something like, "Hey are you still interested?" I instantly responded a YES & he asked if he could call me real quick. It was like 8:30 at night, people! He stated that the individual they hired previously wasn't really working out for them. He also said they got a big handful of resumes, but mine stood out to him. He immediately asked me to come in for an interview. 

Long story short, I got the job. This was the biggest answer to my prayers. I felt like such a fool for blaming the big man upstairs for not listening to me. It was a testimony and faith builder, for sure. I reaallly want everybody to know that God is watching out for us. It's not usually instant like this, but he really is. Practice your patience and it'll all work out for the better.

I put my two weeks in, cried during the whole thing, and feeling so bad about it. It's interesting because leaving my job was painfully difficult. I had grown to love the individuals I worked with. They were my family. I was starting over and leaving everything I knew and everything I was comfortable with. I've only been about a week into my new job, but I certainly know this was all for the better. It's a bit silly to think about where I was a little over a year ago. I had got let go of my job, and I was desperately searching for a new job. These crazy weird roller coaster things that happen are all for the better. I can promise that. 

22 April 2015

Well this sucks

You know how if you get married in college, you have to realize that you're probably never going to see your spouse? Well...Mr. Schroeder and I didn't experience that right at first. I took a 2-year break from school (stupid? No, I actually don't regret it at all), moved to Virginia Beach, and took a few adventures prior to settling down. We bought a home and I decided to go back to school. Trevor finally decided that he'd like to take some classes for fire school prerequisites to see if it's something he'd like to do. I know I mentioned it before, but he is taking 20 school credits and working 50-60 hours a week. His grades are phenomenal and he's a bit of a rock star. 

I'm currently full-time and work as well. Moral of the story? We got used to spending half days together for three years, and now we never see each other. And by never...I really do mean never. Trevor usually gets home when I'm already in bed, and one of us leaves prior to the other person getting up. It is one of the hardest things ever! I don't even have kids for him to help me with, but at times, I feel like he's my room mate that just sleeps in the same bed.

I have never been more ready for a semester to be over. HOW DO YOU STUDENTS SLASH MARRIED FOLKS DO IT? I hate it.

 (PS, I'm writing this at 3am and just sad cause I miss him)

21 April 2015

I want all of us to make it

As most of you probably know, Utah is its own little bubble. When Trevor and I moved to Virginia Beach, I sort of enjoyed the atmosphere and the vibe that the area gave me. In Utah, I feel as if people are extremely competitive. I'm not quite sure why that is the case, but it has always bothered me. Living in Virginia Beach was a fresh breath of air just because nobody cared about how you lived your life. Nobody gave you crap for not being pregnant or the clothes you were wearing. Now, the majority of people here are LDS. In the Mormon culture, we are all taught to love one another, support one another, and become christlike. Obviously, in every religion, there are flawed individuals. Since social media has gotten so huge, the amount of competition, jealousy, and straight up meanness has increased drastically. And I don't like it. 

I have always talked about a few specific friends that have walked into my life. I can't help but refer to them because of how many life lessons I learned from them. In middle and high school, I had a particular friend who was always so competitive with me. If I had a date to prom, but she didn't, she would be really upset with me and not talk with me until she got a date. If I got a job that paid more than hers was, suddenly we were in a fight. It was a bit odd to tell you the truth. I'll always remember this talk my mama gave me. Yes, yes. I refer to her talks quite often as well (how could you not? They're so good!). She explained to me that it's not worth the tears and the sadness. If someone is being competitive, brush it off, and be happy for them when they succeed. You waste way too much time worrying about competition, when nothing matters in the grand scheme of things.

Ever since that talk she gave me, I have completely changed my aspect. You know when somebody gets engaged before you, or married before you, or starts a family before you, yet they are your same age or even younger? And you feel a tingle of jealousy? Well maybe in some situations? About a month ago, I went to see one of my best friends babies, and when I came back, my sister said, "Did you feel jealousy even for a couple second?" I immediately exclaimed, "No! I mean, I'm super happy for her, but it's not my time right now and it didn't leave me wanting a baby." 

This topic keeps coming to my mind because it really is a problem in this world we live in. I feel like comparison and competition go hand in hand, especially with social media. We've all done it. I wrote a post about it in January of 2013. Click here to read it. I wish all women were like that. Women get enough flack in today's society. Why can't we all just love each other and support each other? Why can't we focus on serving and uplifting those around us? 

20 April 2015

Life After Death

It's been ages since I have written up a Mormon Monday post. I have a handful of questions in my email that I promise I will answer! 

Q: Do you believe in life after death? 

We definitely believe in life after death. On Mormon.org, it states something so perfect that I don't even dare to put it into my own words. It says, "Death is not the end. Death is really a beginning - another step forward in Heavenly Father's plan for His children. Someday, like everyone else, your physical body will die. But your spirit does not die, it goes to the spirit world, where you will continue to learn and progress and may be with loved ones who have passed on. Death is a necessary step in your progression, just as your birth was. Sometime after your death, your spirit and your body will be reunited - never to be separated again. This is called resurrection, and it was made possible by the death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:20-22) 

Something I'm really grateful for is life after death. We've all lost somebody. It's not easy. But the gospel of Jesus Christ makes it so much more comforting because death is just another step!