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Headed for a Breakdown

Amos Lee said in one of his songs, “Lately I, I’ve been headed for a breakdown…”  Thankfully, Mr. Schroeder is constantly there to help me pull through. But  last night, I broke down, and I was all alone. It’s been headed my way for awhile now. I texted a couple of my best friends and one of them said, “I had been trying to be strong for everyone else and be what everyone else wanted that I lost myself.” It sorta hit me. Though I am who I am, and I know who I am, I have been shut down by people. I find people to trust, and again, they find a way to throw me back down. But why do I let them? I guess it’s hard when you trust someone with 100% of your thoughts and feelings, when they are only there to get something out of you. I’ve had enough. My other friend sent me an amazing and powerful video. I can’t find a way to embed it, so I am going to type the words out. For those of you who have ever been treated like they weren’t enough or for those of you who don’t feel they are enough, please, read these words. And if they don’t work the first time, read them over and over until they do.

You are beautiful. You are smart. You are funny. You are kind. You are unique. You are worthy of love and affection. You are never too much and you are always enough. You are precious. You are a diamond, a rose, a pearl, the most stunning of all God’s creation. You are worth more than you could ever imagine. You are worth more than the number on the scales, or the hair product you use, or the shoes you wear. You are worth more than how many girls wish they were you or how many guys wish they had you, more than the price tags on your clothes, or the percentage at the top of your math test, or even the number  of followers you have on twitter. Your worth surpasses all earthly things because in the eyes of the Lord God, you are loved and you are worth dying for. Regardless of who you think you are, whether you model in a magazine, or you model pottery with Grandma, whether you are on the hot list, or the not list, whether you are a head cheerleader or a high school dropout, whether you’re miss popular, or you’ve never had anyone you could call a friend, whether you love yourself or love your life or you can’t stand to look in the mirror and you feel as if everything in your life is falling apart, whether you’re such a winner or you feel like the world’s biggest failure. Regardless of who you think you are, the reality is is that you deserve someone who would give up their life for you because you are powerful and strong and capable. Read about the women in the Bible: Esther, Ruth, Martha, Mary, these women changed the world forever and inside of you, each and every one of you is a woman with that same power and that same strength and that same world changing capability. Your responsibility is to find that woman and to set that woman free. This is who you are. Any voices in your mind that try and tell you differently are from the enemy. The next time you hear it, this is what you say, “No. Not me, Satan. I am a daughter of the living God, cherished, loved, and adored above all things by the creator of all things for the glory of Him who is greater than all things. I am awesome." 
Please, don't you forget it.



11 comments

  1. Ok, this post is seriously amazing! I found your blog from your comments on mine (which were amazingly sweet, so thank you!!), but this post really lifted my spirits. I know where I'm coming from now on when I have a bad day!

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  2. amanda I'm really sorry you are going through a hard time. i have no idea what it is you are going through but it seems to be a long drawn out trial and I'm sorry! it seems you are being very strong and handling it well though. don't let the pressure of others let you affect the way you live. you are awesome just the way you are!! a quote i read recently that i loved is "the devil knows your name but calls you by your sin. The Savior knows your sin and calls you by your name." if you ever wanna vent or something,feel free to email me. i promise I'm a real person and not a weird cyber creep :)

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  3. I totally feel your pain girl. b/c it seems when i'm needing someone to talk to I get ignored and I put effort more than others do and its just bs. Why are people only caring when its stuff about them? Why not be concerned with others and what's going on. why not be a true friend.

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  4. That second to the last sentence is pretty much my mantra. We signed up for battle when we decided to experience life and there are evil forces out there making SURE we get one. Its tough but I know we're tougher. Awesome message, I love this post.

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  5. I really needed this. Thank you

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  6. I'm sorry that it's a hard time. But there is always light at the end of the tunnel. And what keeps you moving is that you can always count on your husband, and Heavenly Father to always be there for you. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding."
    He will always be there for you. He will never let you down, even when everything feels like it's falling apart he is always just one prayer away. It's silly to think that something so simple can make us feel better, but it's always so hard to just get down on our knees and say those few words that brings us to Him.

    Love ya girlie. I really hope things start looking up for you! if you need anything let me know. A lunch date? an email chat? happy mail? anything just let me know.

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  7. I really just love this so much! You my friend are golden.

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  8. I love this so much. I'm gonna steal it. And you my friend are golden!

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  9. Lady you ARE indeed the most beautiful of gods creations, because you ARE YOU, you sweet thing.

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  10. You are amazing! And I am sorry about the hard time you were going through. I pray that you are on the other side of it and that your spirit has been lifted.

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  11. Thanks for your sweet comment on my blog-you made me feel like my writing has a place so thanks. I love the quote. Sometimes when I connect with bloggers I wish that we all lived in a little town together and could all sit around and chat and uplift each other in person instead of only through blogs. But I guess at least we do have blogs!
    Hope you've found something to feel cheerful about since writing this. Life is good because of the ups and downs, just wait for the next up!
    xo

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