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the woes of being a perfectionist

Life is a roller coaster. It just is! There’s never a moments time where I think, “Life has been going perfectly my way for years.” But, that’s okay. Also, I love quotes. I’ve always loved them. In middle school, I’d always have cut-out love and hopeless romantic quotes pasted all over my binder. This week has been a really really good one, yet, I still fall. And don’t we all? I was talking with my mother and sister about my friendship situation. I was starting to feel like I was the one with the problem because there hasn’t ever been an individual besides my husband that has equally cared about me the way I care about them. My mom gave me some incredible advice, and I took it. Trevor also sat me down a few weeks ago and said, “I learned at a young age that friends just come and go. And you need to take that, learn it, and know it.” Sooo I make mistakes, right? Who doesn’t? But at the same time, I think at times I’m a perfectionist and I am SO incredibly hard on myself. I get so down if I do something wrong and I feel so so guilty. If I hurt someone, I have to immediately apologize and I say sorry countless times. So I get pretty mad at myself! I have a hard time forgiving myself and just letting go of the mistakes I made . I talked to my mom about it for a little bit and she said, “I was the same exact way when I was married. I’d feel so guilty if I got home after dad did, or if I didn’t have dinner ready at the exact moment it should be.” So I guess it’s hereditary. Worrying, being a perfectionist about the kind of person you are, and feeling guilt over little things is something I got from my mother. There’s a quote that has stood out to me ever since I realized this about myself. It. Is. Amazing. 


Every time I’m having a hard time forgiving myself or letting go of something I have done, I think of this particular quote. I need to deal with the fact that I’m not perfect. I never will be. And all I can do is try my best to be the person I want to be, repent, and start new. Just like the Savior intended for us to do.

4 comments

  1. I always enjoy hearing from you and reading your blogs. hope you're doing good girl.

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  2. What is up with husbands being so wise? I feel like every time I go to my husband with a problem he always has an answer. I hope some of that rubs off on me...
    Never feel imperfect, in my eyes, you're perfect. ;)

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  3. Are we sisters? Ha! I am so far from being a perfectionist. There are definitely some good things about being a perfectionist. Sometimes it bugs me that I'm not more of one. As far as friends go...they will always come and go. It's always hard, but you just have to tell yourself that...and not be hard on yourself if you lose a friendship. We all go through it.

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  4. Seriously, I feel like every post you have taken words from my mind. When we first got married I was so sad because I moved away from all my friends and family. I didn't know anyone up here and I cried everything single day. But then I realized my husband is the only friendship that will always be there. And that's the one I need to work on the most. It really sucks not having friends that you know will always be there, but as long as you are being the best friend that you can be, any one is lucky to have you as a friend!!! Love you girlie!

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