A new beginning

I worked in online marketing for a little bit over a year. There were some changes that the company was going through that really made me feel uncomfortable. Many people were getting laid off and I wasn't feeling secure. Afraid that I was going to lose my job, I began looking for work. In December, I found a dreamy position in advertisement/promotional products. I was stoked and had a really giddy feeling about it. I instantly emailed the company with my resume and got a reply a few days later explaining that the position was already filled. 

After a few weeks, my current position was getting much better. I was feeling more secure, layoffs hadn't been happening as much, the company was showing improvement, and I decided to stop looking for a job and continue working. One day at work, I had a really bad day. Everything was going wrong. I realized my heart wasn't it in anymore, and I was just feeling super lost. On the way home, I was bawling my eyes out and a bit upset at Heavenly Father, exclaiming, "Why aren't you listening to me? Why aren't you watching out for me?" I now feel completely pathetic for acting this way. But I was certainly having a break down. I called my husband crying and said, "I don't know Trev. I just feel like he doesn't listen to me."
30 minutes later...(I kid you not, it was 30 minutes), I checked my email and had a message from John, the individual who was hiring at the advertisement/promotional product company. He said something like, "Hey are you still interested?" I instantly responded a YES & he asked if he could call me real quick. It was like 8:30 at night, people! He stated that the individual they hired previously wasn't really working out for them. He also said they got a big handful of resumes, but mine stood out to him. He immediately asked me to come in for an interview. 

Long story short, I got the job. This was the biggest answer to my prayers. I felt like such a fool for blaming the big man upstairs for not listening to me. It was a testimony and faith builder, for sure. I reaallly want everybody to know that God is watching out for us. It's not usually instant like this, but he really is. Practice your patience and it'll all work out for the better.

I put my two weeks in, cried during the whole thing, and feeling so bad about it. It's interesting because leaving my job was painfully difficult. I had grown to love the individuals I worked with. They were my family. I was starting over and leaving everything I knew and everything I was comfortable with. I've only been about a week into my new job, but I certainly know this was all for the better. It's a bit silly to think about where I was a little over a year ago. I had got let go of my job, and I was desperately searching for a new job. These crazy weird roller coaster things that happen are all for the better. I can promise that. 
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